change of hart

HI EVERY ONE ,,  EVER SINCE I MOVED TO KAUAI.. IN 2001 I WAS IN THE NAVY .MARRIED I SAW THE BEACH OF KAUAI FOR THE FIRST TIME.. IAM A WHITE MALE FROME TAMPA  SO IAM NOT VERY  FAMILIAR WITH KAUAI..  AT  THAT TIME IWAS A JERK OR STIL AM.BUT MY WIFE LEFT ME DIVORCED AND NOW 8 YEARS LATER REMARRIED TO A YOUNG MAN ON KAUAI..SHE WORKS AS A PASTRY CHEF AT THE GRINDS AND HANAPEPE  CAFE..IT TOOK ME LOSING HER TWICE . ONCE AS A NWIFE 2ND AS A FRIEND CUS .I WAS STUCK IN THE PAST HER AND I DONT TALK BUT I STILL HAVE A LOVE FOR HER AS SHE GAVE ME A LITTLE GIRL..WHOS 10 AND THE OTHER 13..SHE THINKS IAM FUL OF HATE AS IN ALWAYS MADE FUN OF PEOPLE ON KAUAI.. SO  I DIDNT WANT TO GO ON BEING THIS NWAY....SO NOW IAM READING WHAT SHE AND MY KIDS HAVE BEEN SAYING..IM CHANGING MY WAYS ....SO WELL SEE WHAT HAPPENS  SHE A GOOD PERSON MY EX..THATS WHY ITS HURTS LOSING HER I KNOW THERE IS A GLOWING SPRIT..PLEASE HELP ME UNDER STAND KAUAI ..AND IT PEPOLE  DO THEY HATE WHITES THERE FOR REAL..  PLEASE I MREADY TO START FREASH THIS NOT EASY FOR ME AS IM 46 BUT I CAN ONLY GO UP AND MAYBE MY KIDS WILL BE CLOSER TO ME....THANK  PS I JOHN  AM VERY SORRY TO ALL ON KAUAI I HURT .. I DIDNT SEE BUT NPW I DO..PLEASE FOR GIVE  TO EVEY ONE ON KAUAI..IVE CHANGE MY HART  ANDOPEN TO YOU ALL THERE HUMBLY